whoa

 I totally forgot this feature existed lol..

If anyone is interested in seeing my ufo/anomalies shots on FB group called Sky Anomalies are they UFOs or Strangeness..not many can see what i do, but i guess if you see you see...kinda like They Live..cause I def see them, shadows on the clouds, shine on the craft, weird protrusions, you name it.

I attempt to sell stuff I make to keep myself sane. With 3 Chronic Pain issues and others to go with it, I need something to get my mind off of it, or I would just sleep all day since its the only time i dont feel the pain.

Covid bullshit....and being alone

 Well this past year has been shit hasn't it lol? Covid blah..The disease that could have been lessened if not for assholes. People that don't know how to wear a mask, and those that don't feel the need. Yea masks aren't total cures against getting it, but they help.

Truthfully having to stay in 24/7 is nothing much new to me sadly. Being someone with a lot of pain issues, I don't tend to go far, but now I can do even less.

Do you know what it is like to be truly alone? Wake alone, sleep alone, watch movies (commenting to yourself), having bad dreams and there is noone to tell or comfort you, having lethargy so bad for hours on end and if you died noone would find you for weeks (at least). It SUCKS

I have been single truthfully for over 6 yrs. Had a dalliance or 2, but no true relationship. I miss it in a lot of ways, other than having someone to talk to. Would be nice to have someone that cares.

I have kids, but they are grown and 1 lives about 4 hr away, one other moving just as far, third daughter isnt much of a visiter either. Would be nice if they called to see if I'm ok :( sadly I have to talk first.

when you have to deal with EVERY DAMN MINUTE of the day by yourself...you talk to yourself, cause there is noone else..crazy right..no its attempting to be sane.

Lonely

It sucks being alone.

I try to keep busy with art and knitting, but its still lonely. I'm alone 24/7 unless I go out shopping, which isn't often. Haven't had friends in 30 yrs, been single for 4 yrs or so, kids are too busy or not in town...my mother is no help.

I'm trying to make days worth something even though I really don't want to get out of bed because of the pain, besides being alone. I am fixing my websites, making more things and am going to get into doing resin art. I really need someone to love me, hold me.

Its hard to meet people when I cant get out much, I get judged even from those I attempt to be friends with because of my illness, let alone potential mates. I even get judged from those with my same illness because there are varying degrees of severity of the pain levels. So someone with lower pain levels think that we are all on that level and think those of us with higher levels are exaggerating or haven't tried the right medication, well I've tried them and nothing works.

On days and nights that my pain is crazy it would be nice to have someone to hold.

The other night I woke early feeling like I was having a heart attack...if I had died noone would know for weeks because zero people care or check on me..nice huh.(just like noone reads this)

Do you like to search Google Earth? Moon? Mars? I do..I find some cool things and when its not on Earth..some Earth-like objects.. try this for a few

Mars
83 27 4.83N 
112 53 44.99E
possible vehicle on a track


Earth
75 4 27.37S
136 28 41.94W
this is one of my own finds...HUGE skull in Antarctica..well i think it looks like one.spin the pic a bit to orient yourself

Hello all...

I am here to spread the word of my art and knitting..well on this post anyway.

1. I have a FB page https://www.facebook.com/KeatosCreations/ where you can see all I have done.  
2. Check out my art placed on articles of clothing, banners, bags, phone cases etc on Redbubble https://www.redbubble.com/people/keatos .

Hopefully you can find something you like..if not shoot me an idea on something to draw or to knit!

Lifes let down

I forgot about this blog....It was brought to my attention by Jamie  because she likes to go over every little bit of every thing i post. Not sure if doin that makes her obsessive, possessive or nuts lol.
I did love her very much. There still are feelings there, cause you cant just turn that off, but not the intensity that it started as. As time went on (months) finding out she lied on various occasions, about travel, her name, things she has done. Faking that she is going to go fuck the neighbour every time she got mad, telling people on POF to "watch out" for me, being an ass to an online aquaintance, and whatever else i cant remember lol..there were alot of little things that add up to OMG lol..Yes im sure being in the same city would have been a better start, she is 20 hrs away, with neither of us having a vehicle. Maybe someday we will actually get to see each other. Would be nice to see what could have happened. I hate distance, you cant get to know a person truly from a distance, and im not just talking about sex.

ps: noone reads this but you!


jan 2019 update..only saw her once..in over 4 yrs. She is still on my mind, God knows why..maybe all that time I had hoped she would come to her narcissistic senses and learn to be normal..lol ya right. I have given up as there was more negative things than good. too bad cause it could have been great, that sex was...while it lasted, sex is never the only thing so all those bad things superseded that one incidence...maybe she will smarten up or come to find someone to put up with her crap.

Have you seen a UFO? I have, many...I had one fly by me, approx 10 ft away. The ufo was bright, no sound and was an orangy red color..have a pic of it but as it was a block and a half away at that point, its not as good as if I had my head together to get a pic of it in the first place. My first instinct at the time was to say "come back", it didnt...


*this was taken on an old phone...happened about 6 yrs ago. I have tried diff programs to clean it up...not working